Hu Nan

I graduate two years 3 months. After graduation that day, sit in south on the train below, to future I am spellbound and ignorant. Today, I stand in crossing again: I need to find prospective way, tell oneself to want what course to follow.

I learn chemical major, 5 months worked in a chemical plant after graduation. I feel major is in this is useless, left so. Then, I entered cosmetic of a harbor endowment the factory does technical work. Although that young, the hostess that comes back from Australia is willing to foster me, but I disrelish that is a household company, brand that does not have his. I cannot find attributive sense, the person takes after a week.

I entered plant of coating of a Han endowment again. Although Korean need a person pretty good, very polite also, but I cannot agree with this job, after half month I again " say good-bye " .

Later, I entered electron of a harbor endowment to process a business, make manufacturing engineering staff. Boss is very cultured, be willing to teach me the thing, wait for me pretty good also, consequently I work also very exert to one's utmost. I discover the work here is very simple also later, do not need the thing that university institute learns, connect a high school student to be able to be done, because here is English work environment,be only, salary is a bit higher also, I just did not change departure state of mind temporarily. I am very busy in half an year, cannot think of where to will go tomorrow for nothing " " . Ever since half an year compares small spare time however, allowed nowadays class at 5 o'clock afternoon. After coming off work, want to learn a thing originally, however whats learn to be not entered, spent off hours in chat and watching TV then. When sleeping, the terrified of a kind of wasteful youth and uneasiness upsurge suddenly in my heart. I think repeatedly: A what kind of job do oneself want after all? A what kind of life do oneself want after all? My answer is very ambiguous.

Have me many times to want to leave to seek a new job again, but the actual strength that I know myself is deficient in somewhat. I say to oneself: In did not make clear life direction, when finding proper new job, be versed in with respect to demit, the meeting is adverse to oneself, also can make parents afraid. But I do not want to waste this life again only life. My consider carefully is too much, hesitate to press forward. Indecisive in, time went every day so.

Severe will comment on: Blend in a society actively, reset ego

Without ideal youth, what pay close attention to everyday is to make money to more or less be experienced with ego how, develop a tendency without what watch enterprise, industry, did not contribute more for others a bit, share the consciousness of a bit with other, without what principle, without the soul with distinct personality. If I am a boss that masters abundant capital, I won't choose you to enter talent echelon formation, because I see the prospect that is less than your life, the outstanding achievement that does not look to give you and decisive, such person is become hard big implement. If I am your mother, I can feel miserable for your condition. Read so old book for you, in the end, you are pushing lightly all the day that oneself selfish calculations.
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